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Fucked Up RelationshipYou left me then
Now you want me back
Not knowing my situation
I say yea sure
Forgetting that ill soon be screwed over.... AGAIN
Like you did before
So me and this signifigant other
Are now special friends...
Ya know, the kind with benifits
Then theres me with a boyfriend on the side
And im telling people on the street
And hotties whom i work with...
Bringing out my true playa inside
But reality is
Im livin a fake reality and i cannot hide
I feel bad for my guy
He thinks im so sweet and innocent
And for me if i left
A million tears he would cry
He trusts me completely
And believes me when i say
That i would never cheat on him
He loves me so deeply
So i ask myself.... why must i do this to him
Im not at all sure
And that part still makes me cry
Maybe its because i want more
Dumb bitches call me a whore
Iam, okay...I fuckin am
Just me label cuz im used to it
For all i care go slip in shit
And die like i know you will
Im not a wus
I admit shit unlike you
You label me a bad influ
Do friends existWhat are friends
Do they even exist
In my eyes
I see very few people
Who would even care
If I was alive....Or dead
Sometimes I wonder
Why lifes even worth livin
Cuz all I feel is pain
And the hatred from peers
That drive me crazy insane
Im LIke a Closed BookMy life is like a closed book
Never read, but judged on the outside
Im different from the many others
I guess by looks im plain and boring
But if you took the time
To look inside
You would learn to find
Im just like you
But you pass me by
And you leave me on the shelf
Alone, Dusty, and out of sight
SOS - Please Accept MeI need help
Please rescue me
I need to be loved
But this life isnt for me
It seems like all I try to do
I fail, I dont suceed in
My Heart is gone
My soul is bleedin
Self inflicted harm
Covers emotional pain
Its not enough
Am I insane?
Im not okay
Its plain to see
Im sick of being hated, lied to, and rejected
Someone please just accept me!
Self Inflicted InjuryMy scars will aways show on my cold pale skin
Visible proof of my pain within
Cheeks red and moist from the countless times ive cried
Im a lost soul whos broked inside
So to you one last smile, for you I will fake
Now its time for my life I will take
Cutters KarmaRazors pain you
Your cheeks are damp
Scars for ever stain you
You feel like crap
Greedy soul, you never give
Life sux....It seems unlawful
Thinkin, Questionin, Wonderin
Why should I live?
hands are shaking
on the outside
on the inside
with every breath i take
the pain inside from people
causing my heart to shatter and break
left with scars on the outside
and emty spaces on the inside
leavin me tearless with bloodshot eyes
from the many countless times ive cried
A Peom 4 GrantI love your kiss
And being in your arms
When your close to me
I feel safe from all harms
When you look at me
You always bring a smile to my face
Your an awsome person
Who I have no wish to replace
I love your ways
And things you do
Your my sweet Granty Bear
And Honey....I LOVE YOU!
Lady WinterFrightful beauty shined from the ice in her eyes,
her chilly smile made your heart freeze in place
and with her always followed heavy gray skies,
stony composure lingers on her face,
the blizzards of her wind sound as Banshee cries,
drift to sleep and accept her silent embrace
smothered by the endless snow her hair,
with her purity and death hang in the air.
The Sea WidowShe walked in twilight
singing softly to an empty sea,
it beckons her to jump and be free,
a phantom grieving in the night.
Under the moon she is a specter in white
weeping beneath the lover's tree,
she walked in twilight
signing softly to an empty sea.
With each passing hour hope burns less bright,
she trembles at a lone owls eerie plea
it haunts her like the cry of a banshee,
a traitors heart yearns to give into blight,
she walked in twilight.
Test Subject #01Little bird, little bird, so brave and true
Chasing the sunshine with wings dyed with blue
I adore the dreams you sowed together
What if your dreams will not last forever?
Little bird, little bird, happy and free
Outside the cage, you are flying with me
I love the fact that you are in your best
What if I take you away from your nest?
Little bird, little bird, sing me a song
About the sky where we always belong
You voice is like a light fading away
You will be mine at the end of the way
Little bird, little bird, my world is you
Funny it is, you haven't cried a few
Stuck in prison, unable to get out
My little bird, no one can hear you shout
DriveStay focussed on the old, cracked pavement
as your wheels roll along the winding path
ignoring the screaming of your personal wrath,
lulling you to fall to sleep as a payment;
It whispers hate that echoes through your pathetic,
Empty head, only full now with the sounds
of screaming tires as the bitter taste of arsenic
Tricks your thoughts to let loose the guard hounds.
The screaming continues and the baying persists
all muddling your sense heading towards the bridge.
How much longer can you rely on your wits?
Gas pedal connects with floorboard, mind goes rigid.
Sharp turn to the left gets you over the rail
A moment left till you gasp for some air.
The Haunted HouseTrees whisper, bats flutter,
Raindrops trickle down the gutter,
Wind howls, gate creaks,
Floorboards crumble, roof leaks.
Leaves chase, the old doors swing,
The hand of night invites you in,
Brass bites, rats scurry,
Insects creep, spiders hurry.
Salt scatters, old clock chimes,
Lost bell echoes through the times,
Cloak swishes, peeling paint,
Dark damp stain, feeling faint.
Run from the house, fast as the wind,
The spirits judging those who sinned,
Tear through the trees, speed through the gate,
Fleeing fast from inevitable fate.
Apocalypse RisingThe exterior door is shutting down.
The walls surrounding are feeling very
Caged. Noises of the dead rise up and scream.
Fingers scraping down, echoing through halls.
Slow movements, a shuffling, a skirmish, shots
Fired. Silence penetrating the building.
Then, footsteps coming ever closer near me.
Dead, alive? It could be either one. I
Hope for the living, pray the walkers stay
Away. Steak knife held close raised for combat.
I raise my arm to strike just to find Jan.
She’s alive! I thank the stars, we’re all we
Have left in this world of death and decay.
She grabs my arm, rushing down the hallway.
Running for our lives, we tumble and crash.
Falling down stairs we hear noises of the
Dead. They come crawling towards where we fell.
We are cornered in the groove. Quietly
We breathe. Hoping by the stars that they can’t
See us. They are close, moving nearer. I
Sneeze and it’s all over. They are coming.
Go to sleepRuby flames dancing in my eyes
Held no truth, full of lies
Adrenaline rushed inside of me
All displeasure, never glee
Hands clenched, face with tears
Dark thoughts filled with fears
Eyes mad, insanity snapped
Crimson blood all sapped
Chest numb, burning with hate
This is all, my only fate
"Kill kill" my mind always said
I want everyone to be dead
Man sleeping in one's bed,
Blurry vision, flames in red
Closer and closer, I go
Almost there, to my foe
Knife dangling in my hand
To slaughter this one man
The man's soul must be reaped
Smile on face, "Go to sleep..."
FearDeath's star falls
Down shadowed halls,
Darkness consumes, eats devours
Until the dreaded midight hour
Creaking boards throught the night,
Shadowed fiends just out of sight
The sandman comes, the sand man steals
Lightning flashes, thunder peals
Crying ssilent, crying alone,
the sadness envelops like the dark maidens womb
Blood seeps from shadowed halls, deaths bell dings
The siren song of sweet abyss does lure and sing
Hook.He came to the door just in time
To see boy commit his crime
He watched the figure take to the sky
Holding his children who laugh not cry
They flew away with the boy in green
Never again to be seen
The years have passed and the man has changed
The time has turned his mind deranged
He lost one hand to the child thief
And of a flying ship became the chief
Captain hook became his name
And the death of Pan will be his fame
He lost his children to the wretched child
Watching as the boy took them and smiled
Hook then vowed to stop young Peter Pan
To keep others from losing kids he’d do all he can
I Dont BelongI feel a great need to hurt you
But you test me
And you say you'd love to see me try
You'd love to watch as I trip underneath me
And I think I would like to see you cry
This world is too small for the both of us
So my thought is, one of us has to die
If it has to be me
I want you to be the one
To finish me off
So that the world will see
Or live to believe
You're better than me
Because I am weak
And you are strong
Your right for this world
And I don't belong
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